06 Mar Crazy change
Zacchaeus stood up and said to the Lord, “Look, Lord! Here and now I give half of my possessions to the poor, and if I have cheated anybody out of anything, I will pay back four times the amount.”
Previously, I lived in sin. I would steal. And God has changed my heart. In the past month, I’ve spent £92.78 on books. Previously I would steal them. Previously I would download them ‘for free.’
Previously, I lived in sin. I would be unloving to my wife. In the years we’ve been married, I’d take sexualised photos and videos of her. These were lustful, forceful and abusive. I’ve deleted 1,043 of these. They’re gone. It doesn’t define who I am now and I refuse to allow this practice to define who I will be (should God restore our marriage). It’s so important that I protect my wife and not take advantage of her.
Previously, I lived in sin. I’d have no self-control over my eyes. I would scour the street, shop windows or adverts in public. Now I cannot bring myself to do it, I am looking on the street floor and praying God would fill my mind with things above.
Previously, I lived in sin. Masturbation would be a daily habit (whether married or single). It’s now been 4 weeks of abstinence. God has given me the ability to be fully content in Him – completely satisfied. I no longer have selfish desires or the urge to sin against God and my wife.
And such were some of you. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.1 Cor 6:11
None of this has been me. It’s so weird. Like I’d previously have to try really hard, but in this case, I feel out of control. I don’t feel I’m doing these things, but I can confidently say it’s Christ in me. I’ve never known this. These items are not so I can boast, but more like stand amazed / stunned by what God is doing.
I must ensure that I continue walking in Him. Continue fighting sin. Continue putting off the old flesh.
Awesome quote from book “Getting Back in the Race“:
“Remember, there is no restoration without repentance. God uses sorry to turn backsliders away from their adulterous love affair with this world so that they seek him again.”Getting Back In The Race, Joel Beeke