10 Mar I never chose God, I chose her
When you’re completely & utterly selfish, there is no other human who can be the priority. It can’t sustain a marriage. If I loved myself more than her, than of course our world would come crashing down.
But here’s the crunch: an affection for God expels idols. In my experience, an affection solely based on my wife will only rearrange my idol collection. She is only human, and couldn’t change my heart… but only my lifestyle.
With a soiled, blackened heart, I have to cling to the Saviour. I needed to come to Him for cleansing. I needed that purge of sin. I needed a worship-change.
No other human can be the motivation for change. And that’s what has been lacking in this marriage.