10 Apr When words aren’t enough
I deserve nothing. I have ruined all. And trust is broken. Words are no longer enough.
I would love to have the opportunity for 6-7 weeks to be on ‘show.’ I patiently gave my wife that time to process her hurt. It was so important for her to do that, and I’m glad I didn’t try to force communication or reconciliation. She had that space, I’m glad. If I could make one request, it would be to have a similar space for me. If I could have 6-7 weeks of intensive examination, “Is this man truly repentant?” I’d welcome everyone’s observation. I have to prove change – no longer with words – but with actions.
If I can claim that I’m ‘disciplined with money’, no longer drinking alcohol, not gaming or watching TV, complete abstinence and having a pure mind… then I need to show that. Genuinely.
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.2 Corinthians 5:17
I cling to that hope.